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dastane eshgh

جمعه 30 بهمن 1388

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                         Aya eshghe haghighat dare?

 

Salam.

Shayad az mozo in neveshte ta_ajob konid.

Begid hatman ye chizi roo mikhad behemoon esbat kone.

Ya shayad ham ehtemal bedid ye gheshe bashe.

Vali intor nis.in ye dastane.dastane haghighi.dastane zenegiye khodam.

Gheseyee tekrari ke kheyli ha goftan va kheyli ha shenidan.

Manam delam kheyli gereftast.khastam benevisam shayad aroom besham.

Shayad khodetoon hads zade bashid ke dastan dar che morede.

Are.gheseye dost dashtan va eshghe.

Esghi ke khodam vaghti ke esmeshoo mishnidam khandam migereft.

Ba khodam migoftam eshghe koja bood.too in doore zamoone ke baradar be baradar rahm nemikone va kasi be fekre kasi nist mage mish ke yeki enghadar khatere kasi roo bekhad ke bedoone oon ehsase pochi kone.

Zendegi bedoone oon vasash bi mani beshe.be khatrere residan be oon bekhad az joonesh begzare.

Are.vaghti be in chiza va bozorgiyr eshgh fekr mikardam kheyli door az haghighat ehsasesh mikardam va aslant ba-ead midonestam kasi ham ashegh kasi beshe.

Vali man dar arze ye saniye ashegh shodam.chizi dar vojodam shekl gereft ke bavaresh nemikardam.migoftam haghighat nadare.

Bezarid dastan roo shoro konam.

Dastan az roozhaye avale daneshgah raftanam shoro mishe.hame midonid too ye hamchin makani dokhtar va pesar ziyad hast.bishtareshoon ham ba ham ertebat bargharar mikonan.inam ye chize adi hast.

Manam dige bayad ham range jama-at mishodam.

Gashtim va 2_3 ta dokhtare khob vase doosti peyda kardim.

Ye joori boodan ke be har kodom ke migoftam ghabool mikardan.

Vali yekishoon be ghoole yeki az bacheha kheyli naz bood.

Manam ke kheyli be nazare digaran ehteram mizaram pass tasmim gereftam ba oon ertebat bargharar konam.

Vali vaghti ke tasmim gereftam ke in karooo konam kheyli dir shode bood.

Chon yeki az man zerangtar zoodtar bahash dost shode bood.

Manam vase inke hale in dokhtare roo begiram va be khiyale khodam yekam aziyatesh konam bishtare ooghat ke mididamesh be ghoole khodemoon ende tipamoo mizadam va miraftam jolosh.oonam tebghe adat bishtare dokhtara ta jayee ke mitoonest saresh roo micharkhond ke in taghirate ziyadi ke too zaheram bood roo bebine.

Kholase ye Sali az rooze avale daneshgah gozasht.man va oon dokhtar terme 3 boodim.

Khob.dastan ta inja ye chize adi bood.momkene vase hame pish biyad.shayadam yekam khande dar boode bashe.

Vali asle majara az ye sobhe aftabi shoro mishe.

Goftam ke joftemoon terme 3 boodim.avasete term bood.saate 9:30 sobh.

Vaghti dashtam az daneshgah miyomadam biroon ke beram khone in dokhtare roo ba dostsh didam.albate ino begam.in ye chize adi bood.yani bishtare oghat mididamesh.vali dige vasam farghi nadasht.

Vali oon bar nemidonam chem shod.ye dafe tamame badanam shoro kard be larzidan.mesle ehsas tars az,az dast dadan chize ba arzeshi bood.nemidonam che shekli tosifesh konam.faghat midonam ye dafe halam avaz shod.oon dokhtar ba dostesh savare mashin bf dostesh shodan va az rooberoom raftan.

Vali man in dafe bi etena naboodam.ye chizi negam roo be tarafe oona hol midad.

Baad az inke rad shodam ye dafe engar ye bar azimi az gham va ghose roo rikhte bashi roo saram.mesle in bood ke tamame ghamhaye donya roo vase khodam kharide boodam.tamameshoon male man bood.enghadr in gham ziyad bood ke man ke salha bood ashk va gerye vasam bi mani bood bedoone inke khodam ham ehsas konam ashk rikhtam.nemidonam ye dafe chi shod va she etefaghi vasam oftad.

Faghat midonam too oon ye saniye ashegh shodam.asheghe oon dokhtar…...........

Ahmaghanast.akhe mage mishe adam too ye lahze asheghe kasi beshe.

Vase khodamam maskharast.vali ye chizi haghighat dasht.maskhare ham nabood.in bood ke man asheghesh shode boodam.

Eshgh.ye haghighati ke dar man ijad shod.too ye lahze.

Eshghi ke bavaresh nadashtam.

Baad az oon lahze va oon rooz toori shode boodam ke naa khoda gah hamash fekre oon too saram bood.hamishe ehsas tanhayee va nisti mikardam.dige nemitonestam bekhandam.hame behem migoftam chizi shode?

chera inhame narahati?

chet shode?

Har shab ta ashk nemirikhtam khabam nemibord.dige nemitonestam in hame ghamoo tahamol konam.tasmim gereftam ke behesh begam.vali az rooye shenakhti ke ghablan azash dashtam midonestam ke bavaresh nemishe.midonestam ke ghabool nemikone.ba in hal chareyee joz in nadashtam.in hame azab roo nemitonestam tahamol konam.shab va rooozam shode bood fekr va yad va khatere oon.shode bood gham va ghose.

Tasmim gereftam ke ba dadane ye name harfam roo behesh bezanam.

Albate dalilam dashtam.chon az vaghti ke asheghesh shode boodam delam mikhast negash konam.mikhastam be cheshash zool bezanam va saaatha too hamoon halat bemoonam.

Vase hamin age mostaghim bahash harf mizadam shayad be khatere inke havasam faghat jazbe sheshash bood nemitonestam dorost chizi roo ke mikham begam.

Pass name behtarin rah bood.

Ye name ba ye matne sar ta sar eltemas va khahesh neveshtam va too ye kart postal ghashang gozashtam.

Name roo behesh dadam.

Yek hafte gozasht.raftam pishesh goftam chi shod?

Ghabool mikoni………………….

Vali oon goft man namzad daram.namzad kardam.manam ke midonestam bahoonast eltemasesh kardam.ghasamesh dadam.vali oon chizi nemisehnid.harfe khodesh roo mizad.hey tekrar mikard.((man namzad kardam))

In harfesh mesle tiri bood ke be ghalbe man mizad.

Chera harfam roo bavar nakard?
chera fekr kard man dorogh migam?

Chera bayad ba mani ke asheghesh boodam mesle baghiye rafter kone?
man in dalil roo vase khodam sakhtam ke eshgh hich vaght be maghsoodesh nemirese.yani age ghabool mikard gheyre adi bood.yani age ghabool mikard maloom mishod ke man asehgh naboodam.mesle dastanha ke ashegh be mashooghesh nemirese.mesle leyli va majnoon.mesle shirin va farhad.

Are.shayad man eshtebah mikardam ke fekr mikardam behesh mitonam beresam.eshtebah mikardam ke fekr mikardam eshghe residan dare.vali nemidonestam eshgh vase in ghashange ke payani nadare.hamishe ashegh mimoni ta inke ye roozi bemire.

Alan ke in ghese roo minevisam 3 mah az oon havades migzare.

Too in 3 mah say kardam ba har raveshi khodam roo sargarm konam ta inke az khateram bere.mikhastam az azabi ke daram mikeshidam azad besham.vali hameye karayee ke kardam hich faydeyee nadasht.dar shad tarin lahazatam,dar hali ke mikhanidadam,ye dafe be fekresh miyoftadam va ye dafe saket mishodam.baz hamoon gham va ghose va azarhaye ghadimi miyomad be soragham.baz ehsas tanhayee mikardam.ehsase bi hoviyati.nisti.enghadar zajram midad ke havase khod koshi be saram mizad.

Oon dokhtar chizi shode vasam ke man nemitonam azash farar konam.chon too fekr va khateram nist.zehn hamishe faramosh kare.eshghe oon too ghalbame.ghalbam ta vaghti ke mitape be yade oon chizi hast ke daroonesh loone karde.hamin chiza mojeb shode ke natonam dige edame bedam.

Intori ferk konam ke hich rahi vasam namonde joz khod koshi.

Vali mitarsam az inke bemiram va dige nabinamesh.mitarsam az inke dige natoonam too cheshash negah konam.hamin tars tanha rahe fararam az in gham va ghose roo bi fayde mikone.

Har rooz saatha dakhele daneshgah mishinam be entezare inke ye bar biyad va bebinamesh.bebinamesh shayad delam aroom begire.

Entezar keshidan sakhte vali vaghti ke entezare kasi roo bekeshi ke hamishe be fekreshi va too ghalbete enghadar ghashan va rooyayee mish ke hadi nadare.

Emrooz ke daram in matnoo minevisam 1388/11/30 va akhare haftast.

Alan man va oon terme 4 hastim.

Nemidonam ta key mitonam bebinamesh.

4 terme dige????

5 terme dige????

Nemidonam ta key bayad be entezare didanesh beshinam?
faghat midonam age omid didanesh nabashe dige hich omidi be mondan nadaram.

 

      Inam dastane man.doa mikonam har kasi be oon kasi ke alaghe dare berese.

Be omid donyayee ke dige eshgh maniye naresidan va soookhtan va azab roo nade.

 




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